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Synchronistic Chaos Part 5 – Surfing the Wave

What an intense week it has been.  It seems that this new moon in Scorpio is providing us with the opportunity to really learn how to surf the wave of Synchronistic Chaos.  All around me and in my life too, friends and family are facing their darkest fears and greatest hopes at the same time.  I am finding that by not being attached to what is happening, I am able to see the magic moment to moment.

Everything is speeding up, including our awakening.  We can no longer pretend that the challenges we are facing in our lives are just going to go away.  This new moon in Scorpio puts us in a position where we have to face our fear – whether it’s manifested by other people who are causing chaos in our lives, or situations beyond our control.  It is showing us that we must take personal responsibility for everything that is happening in our lives because we are creating it.

Albert Einstein said you cannot change a situation at the same level it’s been created. It is the time to start seeing our lives from a different perspective.  I call it the fourth dimension or the quantum dimension. We have to accept that darkness and light co-exist simultaneously in our lives.  The sun is always shining when you see beyond the clouds

At the beginning of my spiritual search I believed that the state of enlightenment was all about reaching a place where there were no more challenges and problems and I could live a life of bliss.  Now I know that the state of ‘enlightenment’ is the pure acceptance of both the dark and light that is manifesting all the time, just like the waves crashing onto the shore.  As one wave disappears, another takes its place in a constant flow.  Life is like this.  As one dream dies another is realised.  The challenge comes when we try to hold on to the dream that is dying and do not focus on the new one that is being created.


Nowadays t is easier to see the flow, instant karma, as things are changing at every moment in rapid succession.  So during this period don’t get too attached to the dramas that are going on around you and live life from the eagle’s perspective.  That way it is easier to see all the possibilities that are available to you.

The more we accept we are creating our own realities the easier it becomes to make choices that honour our true nature and bring empowerment.  The more we listen too and act on our inner voices, our inner guru that is guiding us on our paths through life, the more we can fulfil our dreams and goals.  Life becomes much more fluid and more in tune with the natural flow of life.  We can start seeing the magic and the wonder in every experience, whether we judge it as good or bad, and let go of our need to control the outcome.  Then, instead of being battered, thrown around and smashed by it, we are really surfing the Synchronistic Wave and trusting that everything is happening perfectly.

Love and Blessings

Rebekah Shaman xxxxxx

Samhain – Halloween, Feast of the Dead

This is my favourite pagan festival (if I had to choose), and the one I feel most in tune with. I have felt this ever since I was a young girl when I would dress as a witch whenever I had the opportunity. This is the time when the veil between our ancestors and the spirits is at its most transparent, especially during dawn and dusk. It is the ending of one cycle and the beginning of the new. We are entering into winter and time for darkness and barrenness, symbolised by the next rite of passage from Grain Mother to Crone and from the end of menstruation to a new cycle of inner knowing wisdom and preparing for death.

It is an opportunity to communicate and vision journey with our ancestors using the tools of divination; tarot, dreaming, visioning and through meditation. The portals are open for us to walk through if we are ready for this journey. Embrace the encroaching cold and darkness. Enjoy the space it creates, integrating all that has happened and is happening. Take time out to rest and relax and allow the change to happen without stress or anxiety. Change always brings the opportunity to start again.

Find a quiet place either in nature or the place where you feel most at peace and safe. Light a candle and thank the spirits, the goddess, the angels and spirit guides for their protection and love. Imagine being surrounded by your ancestors and loved ones that have passed on and tell them one by one what is in your heart. End old feuds or misunderstandings that can no longer be resolved in the physical world (I will be doing this ceremony with Don Juanito!!). If this ritual is done with the right intention and respect you can find peace.

This is the night for divination so consult with the tarot, runes, ogham stick or any other tool that best works for you. Be open to the messages as they may not be what we want to hear. Ask your spirit guides, angels or ancestors for help on your spiritual path. An effective way of getting in touch with your wise woman/spirit guide/guardian angel etc is to imagine going to her dwelling and asking her if she has a message for you. All you need to do is allow your self to hear the answer.

Glennie Kindred in ‘The Earths Cycle of Celebration’ suggests a beautiful Samhain ritual. When the moon has set gather with a few friends. Hold hands in a circle. Pour a spiral of salt on the floor and in the centre leave a lighted candle and some nuts. Each person walks into the centre of the spiral and leaves something from the old year and picks up a nut that represents a new seed to grow. Walk out of the spiral inspired with a new direction for the new year.

I decided to go dancing this evening rather than visit my grandpa who is very ill. I have planned to spend the day with him tomorrow and the dance was calling me. It was a really magical experience as there were a few friends dancing that I had not seen for a while. I danced for life and for my grandpa, my ancestors and for all those who have died.

When I came home Carlo, a friend and me did a Samhain ritual where we called in our loved ones and our friends and family who have died and I was able to complete with my grandpa and the Shaman. It was a powerful ceremony and I feel so blessed to be able to use the natural cycles of life to help and support me on my path.

Love and blessings

Rebekah Shaman xxx

Synchronistic Chaos Part 4 – Accepting Reality

What a magical full moon this Taurus moon has turned out to be. I had a bit of a let down last week. I had booked on a goddess belly dancing weekend over this full moon. It was going to be an amazing spiritual weekend full of setting intention for our goals, dancing, staying in bell caravans and hanging out with lots of beautiful women!!

I saw it as my weekend away from everything – my long awaited holiday – but I was too attached and I knew it. Needless to say last week the organiser texted me to tell me she was ill and the weekend was cancelled. I was gutted but on some other level I knew something special would happen instead. And of course it did.

My grandpa is dying of cancer and we are very close. Instead of going away I was able to visit him with my brother and sister and give him an energy healing (I have been giving him energy healings for a long time and it has helped him so much just receiving the love). Just being there helped to heal me in some way, as well. My siblings and I then went to my mum’s for dinner which was a great way to celebrate the full moon. Later that evening I visited an old friend who is experimenting with sound healing.

He has found the frequencies that can heal the human body with sound. He has set up speakers and I sat in the direct line of the sound. It is a very intense experience but I felt as though I was in a bath of resonance. I could feel the vibrations wash over me and very soon I was off on a beautiful meditational vision journey. I saw solutions to many challenges that are facing me at this time and got clear on direction for my new website and blog.

Then I slept over at my mum’s and today we finally spent the day together that has been planned for months. We often don’t see eye to eye but we had so much fun today and really found a meeting place. It was a special evening and a special day and I got A LOT of hugs.

I am really beginning to surf the synchronistic chaos and no longer judging why things do not happen because something even greater is around the corner. More than ever I am seeing that as one dream dies another is coming true. The key is not to be too attached to what the external video is playing because it is ALL wonderful – whatever happens and however difficult things may seem in the moment.

Often we do not see the possibilities that are available to us as we do not possess the eagle’s vision. All we have to do is trust that EVERYTHING is happening perfectly and all we need to do is enjoy every moment, whatever it may bring…

Love and Blessings

Rebekah Shaman xxx

Ratatouille – A Movie with a Message

I love cinema, it’s a real opportunity to switch off, fall into a fantasy world and forget the craziness of ‘real’ life. This weekend I took my stepkids to see Ratatouille – a magical animation from the Pixar people.

Ratatouille is about a rat called Remy who dreams of becoming a great chef despite his family’s wishes and the obvious problem of being a rat in a decidedly rodent phobic profession.  When fate places Remy in the city of Paris, he finds himself ideally situated beneath a restaurant made famous by his culinary hero, Auguste Gusteau.  Despite the apparent dangers of being an unwanted visitor in the kitchen at one of Paris’ most exclusive restaurant, Remy forms an unlikely partnership with Linguini, the garbage boy, who inadvertently discovers Remy’s amazing talents.

Soon Remy finds himself torn between following his dreams of becoming a chef or returning forever to his previous existence as a rat.  He learns the truth about friendship, family and having no choice but to be who he really is, a rat who wants to be a chef

I resonated with Remy, not only because I am a Water Rat in the Chinese Horoscope but because I also had to face the same challenges as the rat.

A few years ago I had to make the decision to keep following the ingrained Jewish beliefs, laws, culture and customs of my community or follow my own way and be who I am, despite the alienation and isolation.  I have chosen to live shamanically, in tune with nature and in harmony with my inner voice and my destiny in order to find real happiness.

The film highlights that to really LIVE life we have to become who we truly are, regardless of what others around us think.  There is a wonderful scene where Remy’s father takes Remy to see all the dead rats killed by poison laid down by humans.  Remy’s father warns him that, as a rat he will always be the enemy.  Remy looks at his father and the dead rats and then says he’d rather keep following his dream and accept who he is then go back to the rat colony and live in fear.  He was willing to change the ‘paradigm’ to something new.

The message of the film is to follow your passion, your dreams, your inner truth and to be proud of who are you are.  Don’t let anyone tell you otherwise and don’t give up on your dreams and goals, regardless of the tests life throws at you.  When we follow our dreams, and challenge old paradigms and limiting belief systems, we change the world and make it a better place – we become the change we want to see in the world and then we will find real happiness.

Go see the film – it’s wonderfully uplifting if you are feeling that following your dream is an uphill struggle!!!

Love and blessings

Rebekah Shaman.

Libra New Moon – Facing my Fears

On Wednesday I had a Vortex healing from a lovely friend.  VortexHealing® is a Divine healing art from the Merlin lineage, designed to transform the roots of emotional consciousness, heal the physical body, and awaken the spirit within the human heart. Its purpose is to release the deep conditioning that keeps us locked in our emotional pain.  It works on all levels, including the karmic and genetic traits that cannot be touched by the mind.

It was perfect timing, as the New Moon was on Thursday and a time to find balance in our relationships with ourselves and others.  Since then it is almost as though a light has switched on within me and I am becoming more aware of my own limitations and negative thought patterns that are holding me back.  I am facing the ‘dark’side of my self that always feels fearful about the future and something ‘bad’ is going to happen to destroy what I am building up.

I thought this was because of my Jewish roots. The holocaust has cast a shadow over the Jewish people and psychologically we are still coming to terms with the experience.  I am not sure we have even started healing the wounds that have been left.  Millions suddenly lost their homes, their livelihoods and their families, and there was no-one to save them.  This trauma is being played out in Israel.  The oppressed have become the oppressor, as we remain locked in our pain and hurt, behind the mask of our own fear.

Only when we change what is happening on the inside can our external world change.  I am removing my mask that I have been hiding behind and really beginning to ‘see’ myself.  This is a challenging process as I begin to accept who I am, warts and all.  I have put myself on a pedestal and believed my own hype.  My book ‘The Shaman’s Last Apprentice’ has been the catalyst to bring me down from my perch and make me face myself.

A while ago we met a fascinating French man called Alain who told us that when we finally face ourselves, we will be ashamed of what we see.  I have to admit that when he said this I smirked.  At the time I thought I knew who I was and where I was going.  Very soon after the meeting my life changed course and for the last three years I have been in a spiritual wilderness, not knowing who I was, where I was going and why my dreams had not materialised.

Only now, in hindsight, can I see the path I have taken and the reasons for why my life has turned out like it has.  I now know the only thing blocking me was ME!!  And finally I am getting in touch with the fear that was so subtle and hidden so deep it was controlling me from a subconscious place.

This new moon of Libra will bring up our subtle fears and negative conditionings that are holding us back from realising our intentions.  Instead of blaming the external world, our partners, lovers, children, parents, bosses and colleagues, take the time to look inside and see that they are all reflecting what is going inside yourself. This is the opportunity to take off the mask and really accept all you are…

Love and Blessings

Rebekah Shaman xxxxxxx


Synchronistic Chaos Part 3 – Manifesting Our Intentions

I wrote a question on 22nd July in my blog Synchronistic Chaos part 2:

How can I know which of my intentions will become reality, in a certain timeframe and which will not, believing that all intentions are fulfilled but not necessarily when we would like them to be?”

I am beginning to understand the answer…..

Recently, circumstances have changed and we need to move to a bigger property in London. At this moment we do not have the financial resources to even consider moving, especially as prices in London are so inflated. So we have decided to do some manifesting and have put out intention for our dream house. Every night we spend some time just pouring energy into the intention and imagining ourselves living there.

However, despite all the intentioning and visualization, there was a part of me that was not fully feeling it. There was some hidden fear of change and what it will mean to leave my safe studio flat that I know and love and start a brand new home!!! Yet the desire to move on is so great that I am locked in a battle of wills – my fear vs my love.

In the last two days I have been getting in touch with this fear. What am I afraid of? Because that is what is stopping me from manifesting everything and anything I want. That is why intentions can manifest in an instant – or take time to manifest. It all depends on the fear that is blocking the way forward.

I know now it has very little to do with whether I am a good person or not an important belief to dissolve, as this belief has been my underlying thought form for most of my life. Things manifest because we have an intention, whether we are aware of it or not. It is one of the fundamental Laws of Nature.

So here I am in this moment, aware and conscious of my fear, and willing to move through it in order to create my dreams. ‘Is this the Truth?’ I hear my fear cry!!! In my heart I know it is because I manifested Don Juanito and learnt from him and the ayahuasca in the Amazon.

There is no easy way to go through the fear. The key is to change the way we think about ourselves. So at every moment I am seeing myself in a different light, and in seeing myself differently I can change the way I feel about myself. This process is timeless, it can take a minute, an hour, a day, a week, a month, a year, a decade, a lifetime. But once we change the way we feel about ourselves the external world begins to reflect our shift in consciousness.

This is true freedom, this is true empowerment ….

Love and Blessings

Rebekah Shaman xxxxxxxxxxxx

Full Moon in Aries

Today is the Full moon in Aries. If you would like to know more about this moon cycle please email me at and I will send you my monthly lunascope newsletter that describes in detail the meaning behind this moon and how we can access the energy.

In brief the Aries full moon is all about new beginnings. It gives us the opportunity to let go of past failures, losses and disappointments and move forward with new energy. There is no easy way of doing this except to step into the fear with renewed faith and trust that the Universe is protecting and supporting us. It is symbolised by the Fool in the tarot. The fool follows the path of the heart, regardless of where it leads him or her, understanding that they is being guided and knowing everything is happening perfectly.

Tonight my mother invited me and my partner, my sister and her partner and my brother to see Fiddler on the Roof. The story centers on Tevye, the father of five daughters, and his attempts to maintain his family and religious traditions while the world and civilization around him change rapidly. He must cope with both the strong-willed actions of his three older daughters — each daughter’s choice of husband moves progressively further and further away from established custom — and with the edict of the Tsar that upends the Jewish community in the village.

It was a poignant play to see on this full moon night. The theme centers around traditions and customs that keep us tied to an old paradigm. In the modern world we have replaced religious traditions and customs with self-serving systems and structures, to the detriment of our social, economic and environmental well-being. We consume and pollute the planet, as if there will be no price to pay. Tevye can be likened to our politicians and those in power who are trying to control our environment, and we, as his daughters, beginning to rebel against the authority that is no longer serving us or the planet.

While we hold on desperately to a way of life that feeds the illusion we are safe and protected, the world is changing rapidly. This summer alone an area five times the size of the United Kingdom melted in the artic enabling ships to sail down the Northwest passage, previously inaccessible. Some have suggested we are on a death spiral as global warming increases beyond original predictions and the effects will be more rapid than was previously expected.

Like Tevye and his community, we are tempted to bury our heads in the sand, convincing ourselves that we will not be affected by the changes creeping inexorably into our lives and hoping that they will only affect those close to the eye of the storm. If we don’t wake up soon we will reach a similar ending as Fiddler on the Roof with the whole village finally being evicted by the Tsar during the progroms of the early twentieth Century.

This is a time when we have to face the self-interest of the Aries moon with the self-sacrifice of Libra, the new moon in two weeks. The Aries moon reflects our independence and impulsive nature. We are being guided on our paths and the need to fulfil our joy is strong. Yet we have a conflict between the ‘me, me, me’ aspect of our selves and the acceptance that we are part of a whole.

Ultimately, we are all responsible for what is happening on our planet. Many of us are here to assist with the essential changes. This is a time to wake up and realize you can become powerful in altering our world for the better. When we become self aware beings, a consciousness in a quantum field of consciousness, our potential is unlimited. When you make a decision to be part of the solution you become the change you want to see in the world. Wait for no-one, because others will follow you when you step into your power…

Ritual for New Moon in Virgo

This new moon is a time for meditation and contemplation on what practical steps are needed to fulfill your dreams. 

Sit in a quiet room – be patient and wait until you have completed all your tasks for the day and you are ready to give the time to yourself.  Light some incense, sit in a comfortable position with your back straight.  Close your eyes and become aware of your body. Connect deeply and slowly with your toes, legs, thighs, torso, arms, neck, face and then crown.  Exhale all your stresses and release all your frustrations, just breathe them right out your body. Repeat this process three times. 

Now set your intention. What would you like to understand about your situation in work, health or relationships.  Once you are clear on what you would like to know slip into the dreamtime and just allow your thoughts to wonder. Don’t try to control your mind but relax into it.  The more you let go the more the heart can speak to you.  Don’t be afraid of the messages.  Your higher self is seeing all situations from the eagle’s perspective, not from our limited three dimensional vision and knows what is best for you.  All you have to do is be open what is being shown.

Take a walk in the woods, or somewhere natural, and smell the fresh smells of autumn.  Jump in the air and enjoy this moment of balance.  Take the time to acknowledge all of who you are, the light and the dark; the young and the old; the female and the male; the conscious and unconscious and to be thankful for your life exactly as it is. 

Synchronistic Chaos Part 2 – Good Intentions

This weekend I had a really good intention and it just didn’t manifest. Since last weekend (see my last blog Synchronistic Chaos) I am no longer questioning the reason why things don’t happen. Instead, I find myself asking a new question.

How can I know which of my intentions will become reality, in a certain timeframe and which will not, believing that all intentions are fulfilled but not necessary when we would like them to be?

On Saturday my mother was coming to visit me in Brixton, the third time in five years (she lives in North West London and very rarely goes south of the river). The date had been in the diary for a couple of weeks to ensure that we would both be free. It has been the Lambeth County fair at my local park and a perfect opportunity for my mum and I to spend time in my ‘neck of the woods.’

But it pissed down all day and in the end we decided not too see each other. It was cold and wet and neither of us could be bothered to make the effort to meet up. Instead I was cooped up all day in my very small flat with Carlo and the step kids aged seven and eleven. My dream day just a day dream…..

There is no reason that I can see for why my good intention to create bonding time with my mother just did not manifest, just like the Ayahuasca last weekend. And I don’t seem to be the only one. So many people around me are manifesting their greatest dreams; while some real good intentions just don’t seem to be getting fulfilled.

This can make life a lot scarier, as well as exciting. Scary because there is a dark, destructive side to myself that can manifest as powerfully as my angelic light side. Exciting because I am realising that both need to exist in order for both to exist It is the divine paradox. So sometimes I am manifesting my greatest dreams and other times my greatest fears and at others some good intention.

The key is accepting that it is all perfect – Divine Synchronistic Chaos.

Love and Blessings

Rebekah Shaman xxx

Synchronistic Chaos

On Saturday I went through two huge disappointments and a huge breakthrough. I wanted two things to happen on the new moon and put them out in intention. The first was to have my new improved website up and running, and secondly, to take a shamanic ceremony with some very close friends.

I had two challenges. I had to rely on other people: the web designer and my friend who was hosting the ceremony. As Saturday loomed closer things were not looking good. The web designer had become very quiet. So quiet in fact that I had not heard from him for three weeks. The second blow was that I had not spoken or really connected to my friend and could not feel the energy building up for the ceremony.

Everyday for the last week I sat and intentionalised and visualised the ceremony and seeing my website up and running. I also prayed that a miracle would happen and things would magically come together.

Saturday came and it became obvious that the website wasn’t going to happen and I just had to let go. I felt let down by the Universe but had to accept reality. Despite my annoyance at not being in control I was able to remain balanced and calm. Then the second blow hit. At 6.00pm I phoned my friend who was hosting the ceremony, she had gone out on the piss the night before and had a hangover from hell. We tried to find another venue but it was too late in the day and after two hours I had to let go of my second dream.

It was then I could feel my self spiralling into the same old addictive pattern of depression, fear and self-loathing (the I’m not good enough critic!). However, simultaneously, I just knew it was all happening perfectly and all I needed to do was trust. For the first time I was consciously able to see both my shadow side and my light side. I did not want to become the victim again and drag myself and everyone else around me down but I just couldn’t stop the feeling that was overwhelming me.

My partner suggested we go to the park to clear our heads. The sunset was breathtaking. It was if the sky was on fire, and there stretching across the park was a huge sunset rainbow – the symbol of hope – spanning the sky.

It took my breath away and I heard in my heart ‘You will never be forsaken, this is the sign of the rainbow, you are never forsaken.’ It was as if Pachamama had heard my heart calling and this was Her answer. I just broke down and released all the pent up feelings of hopelessness and connectedness. I cried for joy, for pain, for letting go and for trusting.

Suddenly, I realised how I had created this whole experience. I had substituted one calendar for another by disconnecting to the Gregorian calendar and instead adopting the moon cycle calendar. Over the years, and especially in the last two years I have been becoming more obsessed with these cycles until I had started to use it as a control mechanism. I was no longer flowing with the natural energy and rhythm of life!

I had broken through the illusion that I thought was the reality. I call this Synchronistic Chaos. It is when we become aware that life is always changing, one dream comes true while another is shattered, while another comes true, while another one shatters. This is when we must ride this roller coaster of change and enjoy every minute of it because behind every broken dream lies a new beginning and a new opportunity.

Once we can really accept we are not in control and just let go of the reigns we can really start surfing the Synchronistic Chaos.

To be continued…